Chemistry freaks me out sometimes. I'm not talking about the composition of hydrogen, but that freaks me out sometimes too. I'm talking about the spark that flickers when you reach a connection with someone.

There's this guy I've known for awhile. Most of my friends at one point or another have encouraged me to "hook up with" or "date" him because we have such great chemistry. I've always said no, no, no, I value our friendship a lot, and I like us as the friends that we are.

Someone who doesn't know him met him recently and told me immediately that we have "unbelievable chemistry" and she can't see "anyone better for me" right now. I value her opinion a lot, so it was interesting that she say that to me. I don't necessarily see him differently, but..... it was interesting.

There's this other guy I have amazing chemistry with, but he's unhappily taken, and obviously I'm not getting in the middle of that, but it all makes me wonder about the greater scheme of things and why we have this chemistry and what it all means and why.

I've obviously had too many white russians to function correctly right now, but I just can't stop thinking about why I have such great chemistry with people that dating is nearly impossible with.